Break-fastOr stretched till breaking point.
A while back I asked Sam to keep me accountable to saying "no" to things that I hadn't thought through, or felt uncomfortable with. So now I am still ultra busy, but more knowing what I have. Take this Sunday for instance. I was going to go on call, as we have to do two weekend days on call, usually together. Then I got an email from church-
C: "Can you meeting lead this week?"
B: "Err no, I'm on call. Can you ask someone else?"
C: "Ok, sure"
Next day
B: " God if you want me to lead this Sunday sort it out?"
G: " OK, GO AHEAD" (well how else do you describe that kind of feeling?)
C: "There's no one else"
B: "Ok, I'll try swap my shift"
B: "Shift is swapped, good to go"
Which is odd, because this indelible tension between med and church keeps coming up. I know that I have to focus really hard on Med this year, yet God seems to keep me busy. I feel so over my head with the amount of paper I'm going through that I'm almost immune to the stress of it all. I hope that I'll come through this wee period of heaviness soon. Thankfully the last hand-in before Easter is on Friday. Praise God for that.
We also went to the Royal Foundation for the Blind yesterday. I never realised that so much of what we do is guided and motivated by sight. Like or movements are given purpose by sight, so without it, we don't learn to move our arms, or feel stuff or even walk. It's kinda scary to think that you can also 'feel' objects with your tactile and auditory senses that are 20cm-2m away from you with a bit of training. Man, I was also amazed at how much technology could help people who are blind use computers. I could never imagine trying to use my computer being entirely guided by the computer telling me what was going on, and trying to remember it all. I was so impressed, yet saddened that it cost so much for them to access the world that most of us take for granted each day. Like for people with visual impairment to text, they need a phone and software totalling about $15,000! It's insane to think that what I take for granted, they desire so much. And they totally know they're the lucky blind ones as well. Imagine being in that state and having nothing.
Ok a nice note to think on. While I was up in Gisborne I came across some pretty spectacular names.
Like 'Johnette'. And 'Paris'. And 'Orsym' (say it out loud, I kid you not!) =)