It's a pity this is right after the last post...
Cause you might not read it. But anyway, its there if you're interested. You could even get some bread and wine if you wanted. But that could be going too far. I'll leave it up to you.

I saw Luther on Sunday night. It was really interesting, because it was for a fundraiser. A family friend is going on a Catholic pilgrimage following Paul's travels and then attending World Youth Day. Even though my Church history is a bit dodgy, I still wondered about Catholics showing a very pro-protestant movie. But anyway...I really enjoyed the movie. I agree with other critics that Luther was painted as a bit of a saint- way too holy- but I guess I'd do the same for the people I'd respect. It really made want to learn more about Luther, and what he was up against. The Old Catholic church also showed me another alternative model of what church could look like if I was to consider all options. I also thought it was kinda ironic that a man who preached Christ is also credited as a hero of the renaissance- which saw the beginning of the science-based faith. (Not that I'm complaining, it just doesn't seem that often that Christians get credit for contributing to scientific progression. Barring Gregor Mendel the Monk that is (and father of modern genetics)).

Last night I watched American Splendor. Its about Harvey Pekar- the original blogger (I guess). He made his entire life as a file clerk into a comic book (pre-internet days). He didn't get rich off it, but became cult famous. I guess the tag line sums it up well "Ordinary life is pretty complex stuff". Which I guess is the fascination with blogs- we're more interested in ourselves than what stories can tell us.

So where has my movie-watching escapades taken me too in my thinking. (I'm now allowed to think because I'm on holiday =P). I've been thinking a lot about making decisions. Not just decisions that affect my life, but affect others- particularly in regards to church leadership. Luther made some pretty big calls in his time because he was convinced they were right. He then had the courage to stand up and say them, despite the power of the Church. I've had to make some pretty big calls recently, despite what I wanted to do (curl up and roll away). It seriously sucks having to make the call, but I know that its right, and even as a doctor I'll have to make judgement calls. I'm just glad that there's always someone to ask for advice and help.

Secondly, I guess I have to ask, "What does the Church look like in the 21st Century". Compared to the medieval Catholic Church or compared to church today- what does it look like? Is it similar to what we have today, and what turns people away? In particular, how do you train people to be able to grow in a 21st century Church? There's programmes galore out there, with so many books and information- but how do you teach a relationship? I have started to hear some good ideas on discipleship in the "post-modern" church. At the moment I think we're still trying to reach the post-modern generation, but one day they'll come. And then what? I know that God's got it all under control, but it is something that interests me and I'm sure will take up a good chunk of my holidays. Which is good, because it is something that I am involved with at church.

Incidentally, is "post-modern" just code for "we give big names to everything that happens in our culture?" because sometimes it seems like it. I just brought "The language of the emerging church" in an effort to understand what's going on. Maybe its more of a culture to be experienced than a concept to be understood. BTW apparently my communion message is abductive (I think), what ever that means.

Thirdly, and now onto the other movie- Harvey Pekar wasn't a particularly nice guy. A real anti-hero if you will. That combined with the anonymous writer convinced me to delete my regalling of Saturday night. It probably was a bit open and if it offended anyone I'm real sorry. I guess I got caught up in the moment. But hey-ordinary life is pretty complex stuff and I've learnt another boundary that's probably not right to cross. Actually Carmi's comment also helped (but don't blame her). The reason you haven't heard of my "relationship issues" is because I don't blog about them out of respect to the other person. So why should I blog about them when they're going well? but thanks for the comments (yes even Sam's and I will be careful).

Seeing this is such a serious blog, a tale of God to end. I mentioned in my last post that my car blew up on Monday, and that I had to buy $40 worth of antifreeze. It seemed that God was in the whole episode, but I wasn't sure where. On Tuesday nightI got a call saying that I'd won a jacket from the shop. It's really nice- apparently worth about $250. I'm fully convinced that I'm only holding it for someone else (when God lets me know who), but it was really nice to have something come out of that adventure. It'll be way cooler when it's used to bless someone, especially since its currently surplus to my requirements. Now if only I'd won the car instead...=P

Yay, holidays are here!

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Last Sunday's Communion Message

(Now with pictures- thanks to these guys)
I've been watching "The Summit" on TV recently. Now for those of you who don't know what "The Summit" is, its a reality TV game show with adventure sports as the competition. Now as the name implies, it involves a lot of mountains. And although I hardly get to do it, I just love being in the mountains. Everything is so still, and so majestic. Being up anywhere and looking at the view is one of the most amazing things I can do. When the sun shines on you or the rain pours it feels so extreme, so real.
I’ve only ever climbed one mountain. Well- tramped at least Pukekaikiore, on the side of Mt Tongariro in 7th form. I remember it was a lot of hard work getting to the top, always looking towards the goal of the summit, which seems such a long way off, and often hidden by cloud shrouded in secrecy. Sometimes as if to discourage you, it seemed that the Summit moved further away taunting your aching muscles to move forward if they dared.
Another thing I’ve enjoyed on the mountains is skiing. This is heaps of fun. the ecstasy of shooting down slopes, taking dumb risks with your mates, winning races, and occasionally surviving some close calls. Unfortunately I still haven’t quite mastered the art of stopping, really more of a fall-over technique.

But why am I talking about mountains? I've come to the realisation that mountains are like our walk with God. Sometimes it feels like I’m climbing a huge mountain to reach the plans that God has for me. That each part is a challenge, and I have to struggle, focus, and push, looking for each ledge, nook or cranny to move towards the Summit. Other times I can enjoy the freedom of playing around on the lower slopes, learning there and having heaps of fun or alternatively learning how to pick myself back up out of the snow. Sometimes I just want to sit in the carpark, and not involve myself with the mountain at all. But you know it would all be for naught if I didn’t remember the cost to get me on the mountain in the first place.

Likewise in life I am only here because of God’s love. Of Jesus Christ paying the price of my failures- cause that’s what sin is- am I allowed to be here on the mountain. Not only that, God has put people, resources, ideas and challenges into me to encourage me to climb towards him.

The scripture that I based this on is

23 …that the Lord Jesus on the same night in which He was betrayed took bread; 24and when He had given thanks, He broke it and said, "Take, eat; this is My body which is broken for you; do this in remembrance of Me." 25In the same manner He also took the cup after supper, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in My blood. This do, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of Me."
-1 Cor 11: 23-25

My take-home thought for communion today would be this. That it doesn’t matter whether you are struggling to climb the mountain of life, looking for that next move to achieve the things that God has placed in your heart, or that you’re taking time out to have some fun and enjoy the life that you have been given or that you are anywhere else on the mountain. It matters that you know the cost.
So I invite all of you today, take a step back and reflect on what price has been paid for you to be on the mountain. To live the life you live. And remember Him.

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The perfect mood to blog

What is the perfect mood to blog I hear you ask? Its when you’re not too tired to do anything, but can’t really be bothered to do important stuff- like the case history due tomorrow or cleaning the bathroom.

I thought I’d start this blog with my reasons for visiting Dunedin.
1) It won’t be to drive around Dunedin
2) It won’t be to find a wife either
3) It’s not to seal a multi-million dollar deal
4) It will briefly involve my thesis
5) It will definitely be about having a holiday
6) And most definitely involve many catch-ups, random things and the King's Ball (Thanks Nam!)

Yes, I do want to catch up with a lot of people before they all decide to follow me and leave Dunedin. Where else can I find so many friends in one place and one time?

As I mentioned it won’t be to drive around Dunedin. As a matter of fact I’ve had quite enough car trouble at the moment. On Saturday night I got a flat tyre. Some friends and I were off to the Med school ball and were all dressed up in our “flash” gears. “Hey Brendan, what’s that ‘whump’?” one of them asked. Unfortunately that “whump” turned out to be my deflated tyre that had slowly deflated during the course of the pre-ball drinks. Thankfully we had two tyre change experts in the car, and they made very short work of the deflated annoyance. Today as I drove out to the Hutt, another friend asked “what’s that white mist coming out of your bonnet?” We checked the temperature gauge but that was normal. We thought it was just pollen because it went away. It also happened on the way back home. Thing is it didn’t go away this time. As we got to the end of the motorway, it started coming faster- quite clearly steam and not pollen now. The gauge was red lining too. So we pulled over, let it cool, and popped the bonnet. It smelt awful! Oddly enough, there was no cap on the radiator. The former contents of the radiator were now all over the engine. Bit of a bother. So we decided I had to get a new cap, but the closest place was a good couple of Km’s away. As a stop gap we emptied our drink bottles of any water and tentatively drove to Super-Cheap Auto. We made it without incident- except the fact that it cost $40 worth of anti-freeze and a $10 radiator cap. Ouch. Luckily my granddad (former owner of the car, and super-mechanic) lives in the Hutt and he said he’d clean it and take a look at it for me. Hopefully my uncle’s breakdown constitutes a ‘3’ so we can bypass that whole “things happen in 3’s thing”. So yeah, no cars for a bit.

Life hasn’t been all bad car incidents though. In fact it’s been pretty good. As I mentioned above, we had the medical student ball on Saturday. Now I wasn’t planning on going until recent relationship issues (which did go well) made me decide to have a bit of blow out. As most of you know I’m not really one for a large piss-up, and I didn’t really have good friends going along. There were a few from my group going though so that was good. EDIT: There was an interesting development involving a girl, but I've decided to remove this part of the post after a well noted point from an anonymous tipster. See the next post for details.


I guess the other big event of the weekend was taking communion. Dunno, I guess I’ve always had a dream to speak in church. Well actually at school it was to speak at school, but that didn’t happen. It was also something Dave prophesied over me last year, about not being surprised if I was elevated quite quickly into leadership and teaching roles in Wellington. But it was still nerve racking. To make matters worse, I didn’t have my notes when I arrived at church (consequence of a ‘late’ night-12ish!). But it was cool, just printed out another copy. I spoke about mountains reflecting our walk with God, and how it didn’t matter where we were on the mountain, we should remember the cost to get us on the mountain in the first place. I’ll post it, it’ll be easier. I think people took it pretty well, and I got some good feed back on it. I was really rapt with how it went.

On reflection, this was such a primo weekend (car adventures and all). One of those ones where you know that God is with you, and that He is still capable of surprising you in the most remarkable ways. As David wrote “Who am I that you should bless me?”

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Not really a post, but some interesting information none the less

I've told some of you, but I'm going to Dunedin. Yay.

Mon 8 Aug Wtgn-Chch 9:15-10:00am, Chch-Dndn 10:45-11:45am
Sun 14 Aug Dndn-Chch 8:10-9:05pm, Chch-Wtgn 9:45-10:30pm

Most excellent.

I'm also leading communion tomorrow at Church. Hmm, this is harder than it looks.

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Special guest writer: Scott

I was sent this email by my friend Scott yesterday. Although I don't really have many thoughts about Scientology, I thought that he made some incredibly interesting points and would I would like to put them up for your information, comment and debate. I've never known Scott to pull any punches when it comes to writing, which is in complete contrast to him in person. None the less, I always appreciate what he has to say as he will often think widely on a topic before drawing conclusions. So here it is, unabridged and complete (Published with permission).

Hey dudes,

Sam, J, Gus and I had a discussion on Scientology last night, that nuts as religion popular among celebrities like Tom Cruise, John Travolta and Catherine Bell.  I researched the scientologist website to find out more about it - the website is a well-orchstrated propaganda machine, which tries to make the religion attractive while explaining hardly anything about it.  Actually I was struck by how very insidiously clever the religion is.

Here is the official discription; it says nothing about aliens, reincarnation, or anything about the  weird and nutty ideas that form the heart of the religion.  Actually, it says nothing at all about any of the chief precepts of the religion, even though it purports to tell us what Scientology is.  It simply portrays Scientology as THE solution to all life's problems, and focuses solely on the aims and usefulness of scientology (thus, it's little more than a marketing blurb).  What little it says is so vauge and abstract it hardly means anything - it might as well be a "description" of Aristotle's aims when he devised his Ethics.  Anyway, how can you describe a religion without talking about it central tenants??  Why would you even want to do so? - maybe since the core ideas of scientology are so wacked out they would put a lot of new recruits off.  Sneaky, very sneaky.  The idea is slow, gradual immersion.  In fact, The Church of Scientology is organised into a series of heirarchial 'levels', each level opening up more authority and INFORMATION the individual.  Anyway, here it goes:

"What is Scientology?

The aims of Scientology are a world without insanity, without criminals, without war, where the able can prosper and where Man is free to rise to greater heights.

And if you were to ask any Scientologist they would tell you Scientology it is a practical religion, with practical answers — tools that can be applied to achieve greater awareness and purpose in the here and now.

Or, as we say it, when you have the answers to life's questions — there is virtually no part of existence it cannot be applied to for the betterment of life itself.

What people need are real solutions, real tools to deal with and effectively overcome human problems.

Every one of us has experienced it.

Think back yourself and you'll remember when you tried to help a grieving loved one, a struggling child, a friend overcome by addiction.

And where you have failed, it's only because you lacked effective answers to accomplish what you desired."

Scott again - Look at this, scientology tries to establish itself as more or less ancient.  This really is absolutely stupid, and is an overtly reckless retrospective and ideologoical interpretation of the past:
"SCIENTOLOGY: ITS BACKGROUND & ORIGINS
Scientology follows a long tradition of religious practice. Its roots lie in the deepest beliefs and aspirations of all great religions, thus encompassing a religious heritage as old and as varied as man himself."
Me again: and it goes on... So, was Jesus a Scientologist, at least in part?  Maybe Christianity and Islam were merely the prophets and precursors of the true religion, SCIENTOLOGY!!  They were the birth pangs, Scientology was the baby.  This is interesting actually - you get to ACCEPT other religions, while at the same time placing yourself above them.  A good ploy in a pluralisitic society, hmmmm....
Anyway, on this logic, you wouldn't be streching things to say cars have been around for 1,000s of years since cars are a form of transport and rowing logs down rivers in 4,000 BC was also a form of transport.

Scott again: however the Lords of Scientology try to have it both ways, by also portraying scientology as fundamentally modern, scientific and progressive: eg -
"That Scientology’s development and rapid promulgation was made possible, in part, by advances in the physical sciences through the first half of the twentieth century is significant. Scientology constitutes man’s first real application of scientific methodology to spiritual questions....Scientology, drawing on the same advances in knowledge that led to the understanding of nuclear physics, provides modern answers to these (basic human) questions."
- Could this have anything to do with the unfettered optimism surrounding science and technology in the 1950s, when Scientology was created.  It appears to feed on some basic assumptions of the modern West world-view: progress is good, science is progress, scientific method is the best way of knowing, science can solve all humanity's problems etc...

Scientology does however purport to 'fill the spiritual gap' Enlightenment Rationalism left when it tried to secularise everything.  So scientology is an ADDITION to or PERFECTION of prevailing views, it does not overturn them since it wants to make use of them to attract more followers - just as it was in the same way it was the perfection of all past religious thought.

Diantetics - no mention of Thetans or aliens ;) !!:
"Dianetics constituted L. Ron Hubbard’s first breakthrough, and it was his initial discoveries in this area which led to further researches and the exact isolation of the source of life itself. Man does not have a spirit. He is a spirit. He has a mind and he has a body. Dianetics addresses and handles the effects of the spirit on the body. Dianetics thus helps provide relief from unwanted sensations and emotions, accidents and psychosomatic illnesses (ailments caused or aggravated by mental stress)."

Comparsion with ancient religions again:
"And so Scientology grows, in much the same way as every great religion in history has grown, from individual to individual, bringing knowledge, wisdom and hope for a better life."
Yup, scientology must be a great religion then, on par with Christianity, Buddhism and Islam.  Well, I hope not!

Interestingly, Diantetics and Scientology itself are portrayed as a TECHNOLOGY.  Is this playing on the modern mind's equation of technology with good and utility?

It's also interesting how the Church of Scientology has special 'celebrity centres', maybe cashing in on the modern personality cult of the celebrity?  The way website handles the notion of giving special and highly privilaged treatment to celebrities would be disturbing if it wasn't so hilarious.  Despite the name celebrity centre, it only ever calls the people who can go to it 'artists'.  Apparently, 'artists' are the prime movers and shakers in our culture ("and this is an irrefutable fact", declares the website, as if further trying to bolster its shaky claim for preferential treatment for celebrities), so they need a special place where they can be refined and honed for this specific and most high calling.  It has absolutely nothing to do with how much money they pump into the Church of Scientology nor the 'credibility' of having Tom Cruise as your front man.  Yea, and nothing to do with gaining greater control over your celebrity pawns.  Basically, if we improve our 'artists', we can improve their 'art' and their attitude and behaviour (since they also teach by example), and thus ensure they influence our culture in the most perfect of ways.  Go Tom Cruise!  YOU CAN SAVE THE WOLRD MAN!  I never knew when I watched you in War of the Worlds I was being incredibly empowered and spiritually fulfilled by your 'art', or when I watched you act like a 2 year old on Red Bull on Oprah you were actually teaching me basic moral principles.  Yup, that celebrity centre does good work.

Overall, the religion seems very clevery constructed to fit in with the basic assumptions of the 'secular'/enlightenment world view.  It was formulated in the 1950s, in a modern, not post-modern, world - hence the great faith in science and technology (though this still largely applies today I think for most people).  All it basically does is take the basics of C19th and early C20th Enlightenment philosophy/popular ideology and inject spirituality back into it.  So, you can be wholly 'modern' and 'progressive', but still be spiritual.  Thus, sadly, it capitalises on the spiritual deficit saturating the modern West.

Note that Scientology does not try to overturn or utterly refute past religions, nor does it offer a proper alternative to the modern world-view.  It seems to present itself rather as a fulfilment of these things.

P.S. also L. Ron Hubbard, the guy who founded scientology, was a popular science fiction writer, and thus an 'artist'.  So, the venerated status scientology gives to 'artists' helps to paint its founder as a superhuman figure.

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Whoo another procrastination present from Abbey

Well actually only because Carmi and Sam said that Abbey said. Then I went back and checked Abbey's blog and lo, it was true.

1]Favorite Scent: Freshly brewed coffee. Or babies. but not babies in freshly brewed coffee. Or freshly brewed coffee made of babies. That would just be gross.
2]Favorite way to relax: Apparently its studying my Bible (true story at the moment)
3]Favorite movie you own: All I have is the Day after Tomorrow... so pass?
4]Favorite movie you don't already own: Seeing I have such a selection- perhaps Jerry Macguire, Star Wars III or The Corporation- not sure.
5]Favorite male movie star: Tom Cruise- I want to stand on furniture and pump my fist on Oprah dammit!
6]Favorite female movie star: Scarlett Johansson's pretty hot right now. Emma Thompson for actual acting ability?
7]Favorite book genre: Dune was finished in a few days- Harry Potter comes out in a few days, some of those Star Wars novels were heaps of fun- hmm, I'm just a commercial sci-fi/fantasy fan.
8]Favorite clothing store: Farmers- just kidding. Probably Barkers or equivalent.
9]Favorite non-clothing store: Not really sure. Pak N Save Kilbirnie gets a lot of visits, but probably not at a emotional level.
10] Favorite cartoon character: Brian the Dog from Family Guy.
11] Favorite CD that you own: Dunno- one that gets a good going over is Shawn McDonald- Simply Nothing. (Hehe, I have it and Abbey doesn't =P ) EDIT: My favourite songs at the moment are "David" by a band called Felt and "Paul and Silas" by Evan Cowan. Which are actually on the same CD "Seed". So maybe that's my fav.
12] Favorite CD that you don't already own: Dire Straits-Greatest hits, ABBA Gold or Newsboy greatest hits
13] Pass the torch and tag five of your blogger/lj friends: I've never been a fan of forwards- go on send your sock-stealing gnomes my way!

Although feel free to fill it in on your blog if you want.

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Mad mad world

I think that's a song title from some where famous. Oh according to google its from Donnie Darko. But honestly, that's what it feels like at the moment. This week is the last week of run (always a fun week ;-) ). Basically my monthly stress week. Although compared to last week, it can't be that bad.

Last week I was pretty tired after all the roller hockeying, partying and everything else. Still, I had goals for the week and I wanted to achieve them. Instead it would be a week of losing stuff. On my rest home visit last week I lost and found my tendon hammer (in my pocket!) and my patient (in her room reading in the dark.) Not a "looking-smart" week. On Friday, I lost my little yellow book, which is like my medical Bible (value $80), a patient who I had half written up, and my keys. Thankfully I found my keys. Yes, definitely one for the record books, although relatively, at least I wasn't in London.

None the least on Friday I was feeling pretty darn crap. My friend Sarah kept encouraging me to go to the med smoko for the Med 2s on that night. It wasn't bad- maybe just a symbol of how bad I was feeling. I did get to catch up with some people including Andrew from my cell group last year which was good. I also caught up with my friend Yasotha who I really hadn't seen since intro week. This was cool because Thida, who was also up, was staying with her. So I got in touch with Thida and ended up hanging out with them for the night. We got pizza, watched TV and basically chilled after a long week. As an aside, I also got to catch up with Jen Lin over the week, but missed Matt and Louise.

Saturday was another long one. I completed one case write-up and a TPER (thought-provoking episode report). A TPER is basically a blog on medical stuff, so that was cool. I also wrote up half another case report from the rest home visit. In an interesting change I then lead a bilingual Bible study for the Asian cell. Thing is I'm not bilingual. But it worked well with me explaining stuff, then getting the cell group to discuss readings or ideas in Chinese. I'm glad that it was just an intro to Abraham, with a bit on faith thrown in. I don't think anything more could have been achieved, and I still got some blank looks from some people. Admittedly, that's not unusual for an English cell group too =P. Watched the rugby at Colleen's place and ate an ecclectic stirfry- actually wasn't bad. At least it was more interesting than the rugby. Played some hard out pictionary with Irene, Izzy and Viv until 1, before cruising home.

Sunday was kind of a half day- but it felt like it was a day and a half! Church was good. Cell was interesting (again!). I got to met someone's brother from Australia. He was really passionate for God, and I found him quiet challenging and encouraging at the same time. However, flaring tempers lead to a couple of other members being quiet upset. Once the initial moment was over, I ended up spending about an hour and a half with someone comforting them. Although it was a real priviledge to spend that time with someone, you always feel so drained after doing so. Rest of the day was pretty much a write-off. More lessons learned. I was going to go to the Detour 180 concert, but hey, just way too tired.

So I better get some sleep =)

P.S. Sorry for the lack of bloggage lately- life seems to be shooting by and I'm at 6s and 7s myself at the moment.
P.P.S. Prayer appreciated ; )

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Rollerhockey

I had the chance to play rollerhockey on Saturday night. Now, I had played hockey, and could rollerblade a bit- but combine the two together- um no. So of our brave "Cutting Edge Ox's" (cause they're evenly yoked and can't skate) went to face an "All black Asian cell"- we eventually lost 14-10, but that was only cause they could skate and had practiced. Once we had played a bit and gotten the idea of what we were meant to do, we went a lot better. I also think that we won the prize for the most spectacular falls. Tommo was a danger to be round, with arms and stick flying everywhere. Admittedly it was a great way to crash tackle the opposition. I also had my share of falls, I think mostly from trying to transfer my weight while passing the puck, but getting very little resistance from my rollerbladed feet. Church on Sunday was spent wriggling in my seat with a sore back, elbow, and a couple of awesome grazes.

After our wheeled fun was over, we continued onto church for Rocky's (one of the Asian cell guys) birthday party and rugby on the projector. The party was cool, as was the game. Pity I didn't go- although for $320 was it worth it? And I wouldn't have gotten to know some of the other church people quite as well. About midnight as we were packing up to go home, Nathan and I were talking about how cool it would be to kick a rugby ball around sometime. Then we thought- what about now? So Rocky, David, Nathan and myself went down to Kilbirnie park for a kick around at 12:30. It was pretty ugly stuff, with the ball being flat, and the wind blowing it everywhere. But hey a bit of a laugh.

Come church time on Sunday. We had Martien Kelderman from BCNZ speak about workplace evangelism- and living lives of salt and light. Very, very wise man with a really good message. I remember hearing him at Convergence and feeling very inspired. it was also good to talk with him afterwards about stuff that was on some of the church's heart. I think a lot of people got some answers to unexpected questions. It's funny how different things can lead to resolution of underlying problems.

One thung that I have noticed lately is that I had been slacking on my God time lately. I have been getting quite into the medical stuff- even doing extra time on the wards! But yeah- you know when things just start to get on top of you, and you feel spiritually yuk? That was kinda my Sunday/Monday. It was kinda compounded by several stuff ups (well perceived stuff ups), which just made me feel worse and angry at myself for not getting enough sleep or keeping up with God. So at the first monday service I just sank back into God. Which was good. no responsibility, no pressure, just God and me. Realigning myself with the Holy Spirit and re-inviting God to shine through the muck and to enable me to remove it.

As a final paragraph, checkout Irene's blog. Irene is my first Wellington friend to reveal that she has a blog. i wonder how many others are out there?

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